godisgood

2006-01-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

here's my fav poem =))

I carry your heart with me.( I carry it in my heart )
I am never without it.( Anywhere I go you go, my Dear ;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my Darling )

I fear no fate.( For you are my Fate, my Sweet )
I want no world. ( For Beautiful, you are my World, my True )
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing, is you.

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows.
( Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called Life ; Which grows higher than the soul can hope, or the mind can hide )

And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart.
I carry your heart ( I carry it in my heart )

2006-01-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

here's to aloysius:
you've been such a blessing in my life
making me laugh when i feel so down
and just being the sweetest person i've ever known
thank you. =)
dont be angry or anything with me alr k?
keep the pic. and keep it well. =)

2006-01-10T00:29:00.000+08:00

anywayy, i think i'm most probby gonna stay in cj. since there is a successful case like my dearest facil, ben(aka bernice barbara kho) haha yupp. he had like 3 as and one c haha for end yr last yr. HOW COOOL IS THAT?!
haha yuppp finale night was AWESOME! haha really. it was. headed to town with meiqi and sheryl after the finale. met changyi and wei li.=) haha thn we went to far east and the facils and other j1s were there. haha darcy came along with us =))

anywayy finale night my house ORION won best banner. yupp. and pavo is damn proud cos they got best house. hahaha =)but all in all i enjoyed. yupp the much awaited mass dance was like fast. and we did an encore. but i still want to do it agn and agn. anywayy i wanna proclaim that i love my classmates frm 1T17 haha esp the JAMS! hahaha funny =)

anywayy mei's birthday's coming. i cant wait. hahaha that girls like almost a part of me!!=)) love ya girl!!!

cher:haha i think most prolly i'll stay cos i think stories will always be stories. and what i've had here so far havent been on par with the juicy stories we hear. hahah but yahhh. i'll take time to consider still. there still is time =))

amanda: yess dear, i'm crazy abt sch. =) i'll see you at dance!!

2006-01-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

yes.. he made me smile.
if you cant see it, it says joycelyn makes me smile. haha thn i told him he spelt it wrongly. haha funny guy.

no you dont know me

2006-01-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

it's a disgrace to talk a loud in public, what more talk abt things that are almost forbidden to talk abt.

anywayy i heard this guy talking abt how he was at 2 or 3 abortions and he described it VERY explicitly la!!! oh my goodness. i got quite upset. cos i think it's very silly to do it before marraige, and later kill a life. it's not just a thing that'll hinder a perfect life, but it's a life you're taking for your ownself. is that selfish or what?! i know it's a taboo to talk abt such a stuff, but heyy it's not sth as simple as gg for an abortion, and all. the mother gets upset the kid dies. sick.it's not that i have anything against the mother but i think abortion itself is a bad choice alr.there must be more to this.

i've never learnt to treasure life, till i heard of him, the life giver. the maker of heaven and earth, the man who gave HIS life for MY life. this is what i call selfless. this is what i call love. love that cant be taken away. i know that and i feel it. even after ignoring the love for a few days i know that love is still so strong there. he's the one that can show me the way out, and to show me too that there IS more to life.

i love you

2006-01-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

it's been just a few days in cjc yet, i feel diff. yes. bad and good. that's bad right?! cos there is a bad in it. yah. i've been so distracted. really. soo soo distracted. and i seem to enjoy it. i mean like i really like it. but i know it's not right at all. i dont know. ahh!!!

yahh but i love the atmosphere. i dont know feel like staying in cjc but i dunno laaa. AHHH!!! yuuppp.made loads of new friends. love them loads. esp WEI LI! hahah =) yupp. i think i need to rethink my decision on staying. need to see it as a big pic. huh huh huh!

it's only at the end when you seat back and rest andlook back and see the diff.

2006-01-01T07:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2006 =)) haha
yupp it's a brand new year, and all i know is that it'll be diff.
gg to jc seeing guys in sch. oh my goodness it's been 10 yrs since i've seen guys in school.
oh no. what am i gg to do?! ahhhh!!!!

okay service yest was awesome. haha. though the testimonial was made fun of later, but really, we were redirected to face God as our no. 1 focus! it was good. =)
yupp. =) sat with my jc cell. haha the name of our cell is m1! oh my goodnesss haha it sounds so funnnyyyy. haha but i love the ppl =) anywayy we had a cell meeting later, and i'm soo excited. =) yupp

after that me and abby were deciding on where to go.yupp. later me luke abby ben chew s.lim etc were like deciding on where to go for like 2 whole hours.maybe more!! hahaha yupp. thn we headed to the beach and we had sandball fights!! haha i threw it at sam oh and it splattered and hit derrick and simin. oh my goodness. i didnt know what to do, cos it went into derrick's guitar, but derrick was cool. yupp. anywayy sorry =)

yupp after that was like 11 plus alr. so headed down to pp. abby went home i went to meet shaun and ppl. yupp went to watch the fire works. was amazing. but the smoke frm the sparklers was like too much couldnt really breathe. yupp. anywayy headed back to shaun's house and we played bridge and we had worship after that was real good =) haha yupp i bathed and slept at around 4 or a lil later. and i was awaken by the guys who were playing dota. yup. soo noisyy hahah so i had a total of 2 hrs of slp. haha i'm hungry now! AHHHH!!!!!

okay i'm off=)

/edit
take a good look at this hottie! haha okay he looked exactly like that when i first knew him. haha how ppl evolves mann. hahaha chook i like you the way you WERE. haha jk

2005-12-31T11:38:00.000+08:00

i dont think i care anymore
i dont think i shall care anymore
i will not care anymore.
you're outta my life

-shuts the door, locks it, locks 2nd lock,3rd lock, 4th lock,5th lock,6th lock,7th lock, erases door away-

to cj to cj to be a true nerd, home again home again to be a the same nerd!

2005-12-30T14:33:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness look at the time. it's 2.36PM and i havent even had my bath yet.. WHY?!? cos the wall paper ppl came at 8.45AM and are still upstairs so my whole family,besides daddy who is at work, is stuck DOWNSTAIRS! my sis is downstairs watching tv and i'm here. my bro outside at the dining table choosing his colour. oh my goodness. being confined to only downstairs. =((( cant bathe and i have a movie marathon later. AHHHHH! unclessss! quick quick. i think i stink.

2005-12-30T09:57:00.000+08:00

i need that fresh touch agn. i've been drifting i know. i have.
i'm so dependent on -- to think of it. maggie was just talking to me.
and i realised that too.
one thing i know, the devil might tell me that ahhh. God dont want you anymore. but what i know is that God loves me whatever it is. cos he knew my ugly sins some 2000 yrs ago, yet because of love he gave it all.
why put any of my hopes on ppl when i know my only hope is GOD!
the only hope that i know will not falter. the only hope that will always stay strong, and will always be there. it's the only hope that can save me. =)

so i lay my hands back down
and i lift my hands and pray
to be only yours i pray
to be only yours i know now
You're my only hope.

anywayy 2005 is coming to an end. and i'm glad for this yr. it's been 2 yrs since i've been in riverlife. many good friends made, many experiences, but most of all. i'm glad i made the right choice of coming to church 2 yrs ago. because i've found true joy. the joy that brought tears to my eyes, not because i was hurt, but because of joy. GOD is my source of true joy. one love i know that will always remain, one hope that i know i can depend totally on. The God that loves his ppl be it rich or poor. i'm so glad i went for the Cambodia trip. so happy. cos i saw what it meant by God loves even the unlovelies. though they are down with HIV, though they are glue sniffers though they are poor and can afford nothing, yet i could feel the love of God, and i knew he loved them soo much soo much. and i've learnt to love this ppl too. =) i washed their feet and in that process i rmbered jesus doing this too.and i was like, i knew that hey, this aint what Jocelyn will do, but God's love flowing through me that has led me to wash these feet, some not washed in months, some so filled with dirty, some scarred. cambodia was good. and i love these ppl so much. i want to go back, i really do, and just be of a tool for the Almighty.o lvls has also taught me to be so dependent on God. really, so so dependent. many things happened this yr, some good some i'm too embarassed to talk abt. but i've learnt so much and it's really true that we will move frm strength to strength in such circumstances.=)i know i've also had some times when i've felt so dry, and i cry out and God holds a hand out, there are times i forget that i've drifted away but yet God still holds out his hand and calls out for me. amazing love indeed.

their cry for a hope, their pleading for a way out
who will show them the way?

send me, i will go.

2005-12-28T14:05:00.000+08:00

oh my goodnesss!! 6 more days?! 3 more to new yr 3 more to sch start

sch starts at 7.35 how early can that be! ahhh
okayy anyone gg to cjc in IG2?!? ahhhhhh i'm nervous and all

2005-12-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

The end of the yr is approaching. and this yr i can say was rather fruitful. i dare say i matured. mentally, and spiritually. yupp. it's been great laa. simply great. yup. but i do have regrets though like, not spending time with my friends.

as i look back i realise that this is truly a turning pt in life. decisions to be made that will affect the future, friends parting and going our seperate ways. even though we will keep in contact but how long can it last? how long can that special bond and closeness remain? will the whole grueling period in jc or poly tear away your moral values and friendships?
10 yrs i have seen these familiar faces, gotten used to them and slowly neglecting to treasure every moment spent with them. i miss my friends. really i do. i miss yilin, denise, jn, cheryl, shirs and pj. stupid of me to have just made a decision of not gg for our christmas party. stupid.

hey guys, i dont know if you'll be reading this but i really miss you all. it's been long huh. real long. and i miss the craziness. oh my goodness. getting all caught up with so many things and leaving you behind. i have to say this i'm sorry. let's meet up soon k? school life would definitely be so diff without you guys. really. i miss it alr.

as little children we would dream of christmas morn
and all the gifts and toys we knew we'd find
but we never realise a baby born one blessed night
gave us the greatest gifts of our lives

we are the reason that he gave his life
we are the reason that he suffered and died
to a world that was lost
he gave all he could give
to show us the reason to live

2005-12-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

back frm camby.
all i've gotta say is GOD IS GOOODDDD!
i'm really much happier=) hahaha
i talked to mak-y and i enjoyed those few moments with him.
thnks mak wai keong. haha
i love abby. hear this agn. i LOVE ABBY! hahaha okayyy.
i received it=)

christmas is coming
all i want for christmas is:
-To dance for God
-sis bro mommy and daddy gg to service.
-to have the in love feeling, with God(okay that can be striked off. i'm in love with him now too =P)
-escada(okay i got it alr. this is kinda cheating)
-give praise to God.
-presents!
-you?
-cambodian kids to know christmas as it really is!

2005-12-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

a thousand words to say to you,
and many "i love you"s
you'll be a missing piece in my heart
but wherever i go, i'll know your mind do linger to me
and so will mine.

i'll miss ya'll soo much!
pray for God's guidance and his protection and most imptly the cambodians
oh man i love them so much.

abby: a surprise awaiting.

2005-12-07T13:09:00.000+08:00

i'm just doing my best
it's my only way
good byee:)

i'm sorry

2005-12-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

you dont realise the value of someone or something till you realised sth has happened to them.

2005-12-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

hahaha, have been out with abby almost yest and today. was great we laughed at everyone. and this wierd girl came to us and she commented she wanted abby's shirt and she asked if my eyes were real! hahahaha that can be rated the wierdest question ever!! and thn we were approached agn by this other grp of girls selling some stuff and when we rejected she asked us " my hair nice or not huh?" hahaha was hilarious!

today the thailand 3 ppl went off medan 1 ppl came back. haha. today was definitely long for me. was in a horrible mood. i just didnt want to talk so i gave very short answers and that boy that was with me tried to make me better by playing some game, well for a while i was lively thn i was back to "i dont really want to talk to you mood" haha headed down to church to give me passport and i went to read abt cambodia! hahahaha. really sorry alexi.

well tmr is the vjc trg and they asked me along but i'm not free.. WHY? i have to take out my braces. and thn they have trg agn but i dont really think i'm free thn too!!! ahhh i love soccer, i do, really.

okay bye.

i need a holiday away frm here,desperately.

my love, Jesus

2005-11-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

thing has been great. really.
made up my mind abt something. shirs should know
it's been really great having the time to go out with the ones you love
the ones you care for and the ones you know will be there for you
=) it's been long since i went out with them and it's only because of the
Os.

wells all's almost over. just that small lil hurdle that cant be ignored. =)

i cant seem to get str to the pt now. more of hinting? hahaha wierd
well i got my mind sort out. my friendships fixed now what's to do is cont making it str.and my r/s with God going stronger

had a great time with the seven haha. window shopping is just great. trying out clothes and just keeping your eyes on those you think suits you. having a wider scope to see. and thn choosing the perfect one. had a great time with jn and shirs too. love this ppls. hahaha it's awesome huh. I WANT TO GO TO THAILAND.

i think. i'm starting to mellow down and this feeling sucks. it's like something oppressing all that energy inside. soon. i will be THE ME agn. =)

God has been good to me. really. someone with the nick "strength in weakness" popped up. he is that. haha definitely. For a maths2 i only had like 3 hrs of slp. because i couldnt slp. and i just kept praying and giving up, i surrendered it to God. he works in wonders. because when i woke up, i felt like i slept for 10 hrs, fresh and awake he guided me through the paper. i guess it's his way of saying i'm ur strength in ur weakness. and i'll nv forsake you even in times u are helpless. wonderful huh. amazing love. i love him so much i love him with everything i am. how could i live without you my love? hahaha

anywayy my phone got confiscated, for the bill, yes the bill. haha soo i'll be contactable only with another no. yup. if i hold it? but yup. yup. =) off to slp.

2005-10-25T12:35:00.000+08:00

TRAPPED
....
-in this vicious cycle of not being able to study when i have 13 more days left
-at home
-in my own world of thoughtless thoughts
-in my emotions
-thinking where to go what to do. how to get past it all

i guess the sad jocelyn is creeping out agn.
or maybe the mask just wore off. and i have no more make up to do a touch up
things are screwed. really. i guess i should refrain frm such a term.
my studies are turning upside down.
brain damage i guess. ahhh! i'm sadistic agn.
maybe this is what o lvls does to you.

no in such a time. i'll praise God that is when i can say i'm truly happy!
blessed is the term,i say. truly blessed.

-now i'm somebody's~
MY KING'S

2005-10-07T13:50:00.000+08:00

hello!! hahaha it's been like ages since i last bloggeddd. no actually not. okay
anywayy got into first 3 months. apparently a rumour is going around that it' no longer 3 months. dont know but ahh!! i want to go to acjc! here my cry!!! hahahaha but i tink it'll be like just cjc for me. minus the 'a' hahaha kinda likee. ahh nvm gathered a grp of ppl who are gg to cjc alr. haha yupp. i know my classmates! yay. hahahahaha

anywayy tmr will be like WOAH! cos mostly all of us gotta dress up for THE WEDDING. and aza's dress is kinda shortt. AHHH! okay okay will think of a way laaa. yupp. cjc open hse tmr too. awesome. hahaha anywayy in sch now. it's amazing to have a comp lab as ur classroom. you get to have aircon and also have comps to use! hahahaha okay okay gonna have el tutorial soon.

geraldine:
hey my classmate! haha or sch mate ahh! cant waittt!!

nat:
why wont you!!! =( thn i'll have to keep it on the stars thn!

alexi:
thnks for being there yupp? hahaha sorry too! yup yup. KEEP UR EYES OPEN!!!

this is to my dear:
I LOVE YOU MAGGIEEEE!!!!
and her mom:
AUNNTTTYYYYY!!! hahaha i love you too!

JOCELYN

2005-09-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

haha it's been long since i last blogged. so many things happened. rahh! tmr is my last paper. yay! praise God that this exam was Good! hahaha and that what i studied came out! heh. esp the lit paper! whewww. haha

had the paper till 9.45 today, went home and i slept till 1 plus met maggie and i tried to study.. yup tried to. hahahaha. got really distracted. and i decided i couldnt study anymore. alexi and nicholas came to join us. broke fast with a ham and cheese croissant. YUMM!maggie's mom kept popping by was really funny. rahh i like maggie's mummy and maggie! u see this? hahaha thn alexi drew me this route to his house and i had to navigate them to a pt. haha i did a great job. the houses there were nice. and new WOAH! hahaha. tmr i end at 9! 1 hr paper. and i head home, will be meeting maggie for a movie agn! heh. our new found hobby!oh yah!! i walked home frm east pt! great exercise! with nicholas of course! thnkks! hahaha! yay

replies---
lois:helllo girll.u havent come for 2 saturdays no wonder i feel kinda wierd. quick come. and stop making me miss you =(hahaha

aud: hey girrll hahaha sorry agn kk. thnks for always being there for me. i love youuu too!

nat: ehh! eat kk? hahah everyone seems to be telling u that rite? hahaha okay. rahh i'll keep my eyes on the stars as long as the shirt tells me to!quick cover that part with errm black paint!!

kk time for the jap show. -swooons

i know my God made a way for me.
his plans for me to prosper and never to fail.
in him i'll stand cos that's where i wanna be!

2005-08-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

haha today we had ss. rahh ss was FIERCE! hahah okay okay and i prataed with Pek. haha.i'm proud to say I'M AS TALL AS A GUY!! rahhh

anyway, was looking through my pics. and i found some that i seemed so happy in. as in not that i'm not happy now but i rmbered the times when there was no backstabing and all. and everyone were as friends. no one felt left out no one were criticised. and it gave me this feeling. u noe what they say behind a pic tells a story. and it's true. i rmb being soo close to shirs as in like really close laa. i dunno why i always talk abt this silly girl. but only a yr later and we're like soo soo distant frm one another. i can honestly say that i noe i've changed for the worse i supposed. being soo full of myself and not trying to just get back to reality. but i do miss the times when we just all talked outside the class and just discussed about everything. no boundaries. i noe it's not shirs who made those boundaries but me. and to say the truth after so many things that happened last year i feel so insecure i just dunno what to do. i've been really distant frm the clique cos of some comment made and cos i tot, why cant our grp just be friends?? why cant we just stop talking bad about one another? be honest and all. i cant blame anyone for just talking bad about that person. but sometimes when that person is there tell her!it's only when u start looking back that u realised how much things has changed it's scary. Imagine moving on to poly or jc. rahh. i just wished things were as it were. everyone just being there for oneanother no anger or hatred just loving one another. if only things were back to the past.

It's scary how situations turn you upside down till u cant seem to find the ground.

joce pray pray pray. GOd had made a way just that u didnt follow after him. u closed up the way.

amazing love how can it be that you my king would die for me.
the truest friend i've got is Jesus. Are you willing to let him be your best friend too?

2005-08-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

ahh. i'm alrite. today was alrigttt. ermm kinda. just had so many thoughts going through my mind. sorry cheryl i didnt attend your birthday lunch, besides tuition there was of course another obvious reason to it. rahh but sorry dear. will try to do something to make up to u kk? heh.

we sang "one day" for hymn today funny. haha but i was like bouncing and singing. haha the joy.lalala.

we finished watching schindler's list today. left me in tears. yilin was surprised i cried. it's sadd whatt. just pushed my button i guess. it's sad.really. i mean more of touching laa. he was like braking down and though he was a german and war just ended and he was "hunted" he still cared for the jews. saying i copuld have saved 10 more if i sold my car! 2 more for my badge it's real gold! or at least 1 more! and he alr saved 1100 jews if i'm not wrong. really really amazing guy. besides the part about having a mistress and stuff. ahh. he's sooo COOL! i wanna be schindler's wife. ahh but he musnt have other women that is! hahahaha. he paid millions! for those jews. ahhh!! alll his wealth all to them! awesome guyy

prelim's soon. not even done with venice in ss. ahh and ss mock is this friday. thanks mrs lopez but i still love your lessons! hahahaha. i like ss k!

okay bye -smiles-

2005-07-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

okay okay. haha shall help advertise ming (wei!)(weilian) (ah ming ge's) blog hahaha cos i did the skin. something worthy to be proud of, besides being a child of God! heh. =P

my dance with god will continue, and will never end.
he'll take me each step as i fall deeper in love with him
just looking at his face makes my heart race,
i love being in his presence, now and forever more.

2005-07-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

Thanks to my good ol fone i'm able to blog.heh handphone style.Just that it cost a bit so gotta be quick.at the hospital now to check up on my ankle i waited for about an hour before i finally saw the doc.Haha.and he just nudged my ankle a lil and said i'll have to come back and i'm out again waiting again.another long wait before i get to pay and go back home.Anyways i'm really happy;)cos we're gonna i have prayer meeting every school day for a month.Though i've gotta wake up early it's worth it;)i'm off!

2005-06-24T14:06:00.000+08:00

yo yo young ppl -laughs private joke

let me tell u how my bday(23june05) went.
aaron, sherman Q. and shawn tan stayed over at the chalet.
was late for my breakfast with isaac. which means i was SUPER late for celebration team camp.
kinda didnt want to go. but i guess God wanted to teach me to expect something frm him la. no matter whatt
and to just press into his presence. yup yup. the camp was awesome laa. besides a certain mishap. that marvin lowe keeps disturbing me about. erhhh. hahahahaha no laaa.
we really did press into God's presence and pastor ronald frm grace assembly was awesome. hahaha but it was God that was the most awesome. =))and shuying gave me a surprise!! she went to buy a cake and i didnt even expect it! heh thnks dear! and thnks to all the dancers!!

will be heading down to the sin seh later. i cant dance cos i sprained my ankle while playing blindman's camptain's ball. heh. however i wasnt blindfolded. haha a wonder..

anywayy to all those that came down for my bday celebration on the 22 june. and all those that remembered my bday and ahhh. shuying and my dear fellow dancers!
THANK YOU LOVELIES AND HANDSOMES!
really enjoyed this birthday. was one of the best. or can i say it's the best one ever ! thnks for making everything soo awesome everyone!

another thing. happy birthday to jazreen and to all whose bday is somewhere around this time and to becky lah!! happy 1 day late birthday! heh. =)

2005-06-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

11 more days to my bday! haha will be having a party. something liddat. shall send out invitations sooon! hahaha will use it the cool way SMS! woohooo!!

camp was awesome!david palmer kinda like "woke us up" haha to say the truth. God is more personal to me now thn before. hahaha i love him! to think that he really noes what i'm thinking. even thn! woohooo!!!

i'm kinda lazy to type noww. hahaha. played badminton with ah ming ge today and i WON! hahaha victory. had pastamania as my prize =)

you noe God is soo awesome. the way he moves is really amazing. ahhh. splendour of the king. hahaha i love it when i start dancing for him. cos it's about him not my mistakes or how i look. i noe that he's looking at me smiling like a proud parent saying that's my child. and he does that for all the others too!! hahaha amazing love! hahahaha. it's amazing laa. really.

I WALK BY FAITH
EACH STEP BY FAITH!!!

God you are awesome. lovely, wonderful and so much more. no one can ever describe u other thn standing in awe of u and just admire your beauty!
it's such a privellege to be given grace and love and all by God.
my fave phrase frm passion of the christ.
"look i make things new" ahhhh. -hearts melt.
it's this whole love relationship whereby God just stays by you nv letting you go. no heartbreaks with him. just a broken spirit when u come before. him. and i'm honoured to love and be loved by someone soo beautiful and wonderful and ahhh. soo perfect! hah.

okay mommy calling me to eat.. ahhh. tas!

-The gross one, of [The pretty, Royal dancers]
Princesses(chilldren of the most high kings) yet servants of the lord(dancing for the most high king!)

2005-06-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

cos we're all about you.

had dance today! dance was awesome! God just moved soo evidently among us. you can just feel the peace in your heart. just soo awesome! i love you my dears! hahaha

anywayy we're THE PRETTY ROYAL DANCERS! and we'll dance for our king forever. no one can stop me frm loving my god and frm dancing for him. no one. i'll dance thru my darkest times and my tambourine and my God will peirce thru the darkness.

IB IS EXPENSIVE!!!

when the tambourines all struck down on the same note.
that was when i knew it's not about me alone
but about us.
tog God will use us!

vanessa. DITTO! i cant wait for dance too!

my dance is for you my love

2005-05-12T14:31:00.000+08:00

i love my dancerss!

Can't wait for youth camp!hahaha. =) woohoooo! lalala.
have been studying and studying examsss
lalala.
went to isaaaac's house to watch the TIRTY-BFIIIVE DOLLAARS! things.
it's this comedian called russel peters really cracked me up.

2 more papers left tmr and i'm FREEEE! lalala.
but there's still chinese os and if i dont get my butt off and start studying intensely.
ooopppff. i'll do really badly for prelims and perhaps os soo. it's a 3 days rest thing for me.
ergggh. hope i dont go to saturation pt. lala

my true love will always remain as you
for you love me as i am.
and will never let me go.

i'll dance for your kingdom and for the world to see
your power and your majesty
cos in you i am free i fear not when i dance
cos all i tink of is You, My best friend.

-dances

2005-04-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

the way God works is soo awesome. so many things in our lives happens. and we say why god? why do you do such a thing? why? why is it so unfair. but when u look back in life u see that it was for a purpose. God always set boundaries and does things that might seem to be unfair. but he does it cos he knows we wont be happy with such. like premarital sex. God has set a boundary in the ten comandments. the reason being simple. so that we wont regret it. what's better? to loose ur virginity and not gain it back forever before marraige. or to keep it for the right one.

many things we ask why? and sometimes answers just dont come by. but i surrender to his plans cos he knows me best. he knows what the future holds for me. he knows the circumstances. and he has a plan for me.=)

God can turn sadness into happiness and hurt into joy.and so many more. on monday i was just being that sad girl hoping for just the lights to be turned on agn. and isaac told me this. "Jocelyn dont cry .go and pray. if u cry you're trying to tell god u have no faith in his plans for you." and i prayed. and God just simply lifted up my hurts and i was practically jumpingafter that simple prayer. the way god works is just simply wonderful!

for napfa(2.4). i just practically felt God saying to me. hold my hand and i'll lead you on. and i'm like God's so romantic! what honour i have! hahaha. i sang "god will make a way" and a few girls stared at me. but who cares? it's God i'm singing to! and he gave me so much more strength i felt being pushed forward!

Jesus loves me this i know for the bible tells me so

2005-04-09T12:23:00.000+08:00

it's just another day whereby i get so grumpy i want my way. forgive me if i'm this way to you. just not my day for the past 2 days. i've been soo easily irritable. and when someone said hey this is a test i just said i'm asking her laa. like i'm just sooooo ERGH! isaaaccc! u made me laughh thnks! heh. shawn too! but sorry alrte. i made sy angryy. ahhh!!! i need to study. maybe that'll take away all these. cos i've been bubbly for a few days till recently.

sometimes i dont know what to do just to sing a song and sit before the lord knowing that when i close my eyes he's there with me to make the best night for me. when i'm upset he's here forever. always and forever.

make me smile agn.

IT'S DRESS UP DAY!! SURPRISEEEE! heh

2005-04-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Patrina!

heh went to the bbq before that i did the whole a maths ws. kinda contented but i think everyone else has completed it ahh! i need to get serious alrd. neeed to start studying like how Mr You did. hahaha.

i need to have a one hour QT ahh! it's been long since i've last spoken to god for a long timeee. ahh!

The love of God is more thn life itself.

2005-04-01T18:53:00.000+08:00

Enough is enough

2005-03-31T17:54:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging with my fone ;) heh it's cool but i tink it'll cost alot ah ok shan't say much. Heh. Love love
when my world is falling down in you i will be found

2005-03-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

happy birthday isaac!!!

today i went out with some people. =)
went to have our mos lunch which SOMEONE found too expensive to eat -smiles-
thn walked around and stuff yihui left
went to gelare and we went to play pool! hahaha
i love poool! haha cos i get to toss the white ball all arnd. and act silly and miss the balls and watch the
"pro"s give in!haha
thn i went to pp. with nat. and i was trying to look out for nice stuff for isaac my friend. hahaha.
tuition was as mos-y as before. heh i had corn soup! lalala =)

someone's having house meeting and i can only stay here and rot.
i need to do my proj and my cam is having a prob AHH!
i feel so slackk. =(

about the giving in thing. i feel that sometimes it may seem like the other party doesnt give in and all. but i guess both works just as hard. like L feels that C doesnt give in when L thinks that he/she gave in alot more thn C and when C thinks he/she gave in more thn L so it's how you see it la. but it's how you see it. cos no one can judge a relationship when they are out of it not even those in the relationship cos we dont know the effort each one of us put in. but what should drive us on is that we know both are putting in. in many diff areas. if not a relationship will nv get to function.=)

2005-03-25T13:03:00.000+08:00

i dont want to carry on like this i dont want you giving me empty promises.
how much more can u hurt someone?
you tell me you promise.
it ends up being broken.
i have no idea what to do but just say get out of my life now.
for a day or two. i want to enjoy without you.

i guess i should learn to forgive over the next few days.

my heart is broken. jason deary i need to cry on u.
but perhaps it's better this way for me and *.

i'm off to isaac's house to play tennis with him and josh cho. i'm gonna smile all day round. God had heard my prayer! thnk you father. thnk you. i love you

Thank you for today!
[quotes frm sheryl] the devil was defeated today[/quote].and we were set free on this day.by the blood of Christ.

2005-03-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling to down now. o lvl chinese is in about 2 months time. and i'm not in a mood for chinese! i've got tuition later but i havent studied my ting xie yet and i'm here shaking my legs starin at the com screen and sulking. heh a little.

i want to go aus. i'll go borrow money frm the bank! and go there aft o lvls! wahahhaa. okay and i'll go find a house to stay in. and slack there till i have more money for sch! wahahaha. okay okay. retarded..

i'm gonna watch ms congeniality 2 yay. woahhh. haha with my dad and mom and sis. lalala.

i met someone on someday at some park and we played some swing with some kids. and we talked some talk!=) crap. haha

i wish you would tag as you do elsewhere. do u even read this?i'm just questioning

I was walking home and i thought. why is everyone rejecting this offer to spend eternity in heaven. when all u have to do is believe? why do people reject the love of God? so many things we cant really get to comprehend. and when we want to tell them of such a greatness that they can get. which is priceless they turn away and say stop talking to me about that. why cant they just hear and decide instead of having a mental blockage towards what they call "such nonsense". why do they have to wait till there is no turning back whereby they say "i regret"? u've gotta taste an apple to tell of its sweetness. why do they judge it before tasting it?God really loves you. and all u need to do is believe. and when u've got him in ur life. it seems like u are alr in heaven. cos u're alr gt a place in heaven(it's guranteed by the word of God). believe in him. cos he loves you so much. we might all seem to "belong" to this world. but in the end we know that we wont stay here forever. they'll be eternity. and it's for you to choose. where you would rather go. cos we're all in this world. but not of this world.our valubles stay in this world when we're gone.it's all your own choices

2005-03-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

i feel like going to aus.=( why? i dunno. go away feeeling. you've created so muich trouble for me last yr i dun wan it agnnn